I don’t know if anyone still reads or even checks in over here. Had to clean out cobwebs, a lot of dust (cough) and a few critters of the spammy variety before I decided to post just for shits and giggles.
Many changes have occurred for this dragon/phoenix and as usual, I have had to rise from my own ashes in the process.
Loss of friends along the way has dealt me a major blow, mentally and physically. My heart just doesn’t beat right these days because of a major gaping hole that is there, and it is of my own doing. I don’t think I will ever be right again until 1. I get a chance to make it right or 2. I get hard-hearted and stop caring so much about it (and I don’t see that happening in this lifetime).
I will always love and care for this person. I will always be here for this person whether I am wanted or not. I will always answer if they should ever have the want or need. And I am ready to kneel and tell them that I am sorry. My pride went out the window long ago and there is much to beg forgiveness for. I was wrong and I know it. Instead of telling you be happy and bask in the glow for as long as you can, I got mean and hateful. True friends do not do those things… intentionally. But still no excuse, even though this was truly not my intention. It was not until after the bomb fell, and the smoke cleared, that I realized what an ass I really was.
I will be posting again regularly, even if no one ever reads it, because I really need a friend… even if it is imaginary in this ghost town of a blog.
Until next time… be kind and think twice before you say or type something you will regret later.
A tired and very dusty old bird.
I was SO happy to see you today! A lot of bloggers have stopped,
and I miss them (including) you! I’ll keep in touch. I am a friend,
you know.
Take care; time heals – I know we all say that, but it is true. Perhaps
not in the time frame we would like. ((hugs))