Well, ok. I have to admit that I have been busy, but that is no excuse. What has really been happening is that I have been hiding. Yes, hiding. Hiding from my friends, responsibilities and, most of all, emotional attachments. I don’t want to go into details, but, suffice it to say that I have some things that I have to work through and I am glad of two things… 1. That I have friends that accept that I run off and ignore the world when I have issues to deal with, and 2. That my subconscious will force me to pick the right movies to trigger the memories/ideas that I need to deal with my issues. I could delve deep into the sinkhole that I call a mind, but the demons and devils that would come to light would cause me no end of trouble (and would give nightmares to some). I am simply grateful that there are people that care enough to both understand and nag.
Yes, I did get the job that I wanted, and I have been working at it for two months, now. The good news is that I am making OK money and I get a full benefits package. The better news is that I am challenged every single day, and I get to continue to support the US Army, even though I am retired (I AM actually retired, now. My first day as a civilian was December 1st). The bad news is that all of the little things that bothered me while I was active duty are magnified at this level. In case you are wondering, I hate both internal politics and egos, and I am dealing with both daily.
On a bad note, the gentleman that interviewed me for the job (and that I worked with) passed away about two months ago, and I have been doing his job. If (and that is a rather large IF) I get his job I will get a substantial raise to do the job that I am doing now. We will see…
I haven’t forgotten you all, I am simply avoiding my emotions, and that means that I don’t write much because I tend to look inside when I write. Please forgive my absence and know that, when I can deal with it all, you will be the audience for a long rant…
P. S. Phoenix, “Phenomenaâ€
Yep, that is me the nagger… um, is that a word? lol
We MISS you damn it!
Glad your back even if you are hiding…
Glad you’re out of hiding and at least shuffling through everything. Half the battle is realizing what you’re doing, and hiding from it all doesn’t make it go away, it just eats time. And I, for one, believe there are much better things to eat….
…..geeeez guys…..I’m talking pumpkins pie, cheesecake, and pizza! Keep posting and giving us peeks into that “sinkhole” that has such wonderful insights, ideas and creative outlooks.
welcome back, soldier.
yes, sometimes movies or dreams are useful insorting us out emotionally. I think I am due to rent “Lost Weekend” how sick is that?
but my tree house escape is coming along nicely