Men WILL be the death of me
Jun 30th, 2008 by phoenix69
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Men, can’t live with them. They won’t let you love them and they REFUSE to communicate.
My son hates me, my hubby… meh… lets not go there and my best friend, sigh… I just not sure what is going on there. He knows all the right things to say, except when they need to be said. He knows I love him to death and would do anything for him… but certain things are kept too private. Don’t get me wrong, everyone is entitled to their privacy, but when you know that someone has been missing the hell outa you and misses chatting… well, dammit, next time warn me.
I can never call at the right time. I never seem to be able to text at the right time and I feel awkward as hell interupting someone. I have a hard enough time carring on a conversation as it is and if I feel as though I am bothering someone? Well, I go silent. One way conversations are just fucked up.
How bad is it that I have just 4 people that I talk to on the phone? 1 My mother, 2. My step-daughter (that I never talk to), 3. My best male friend, 4. My best girl friend. I have my home number as 1 of my fav 5. I am a sad, pathetic creature.
Between my hubby chasing away most of my friends and me not keeping up with the rest… there just is no one to chat with anymore outside of those 4. My kid only calls me when he wants something or when he is late getting home. My best girl friend doesn’t particularly love my hubby… so we hardly ever talk and I try to call my mom as much as I can between teenager problems and work.
My times to talk freely are far and few between. I have never felt truly confortable talking to anyone in front of the hubby. I don’t know why… so don’t ask. He constrains me for lack of a better word. My thought patterns do not function properly when he is sitting near. Most times, I just get up and move to another room… but then I feel sorta guilty doing so… not that I am doing anything wrong… it just frees that weight of him being near.
Oh well… maybe in the next life.
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On the good news front…
The pest got his own place and moved out. Now if he would just get all his shit out of the way… and not come over here every day I would be that much happier.
6 Responses to “Men WILL be the death of me”
I’d leave a comment, but I don’t say much
Truth be told? You have said more to me in the last year than most. I get my kicks these days out of reading freecycle e-mails because no one else mails me. I get plently of jokes in the mail but most of them have made the circuit 10 times already and why clog someone else e-mail up with junk from me? I really need to find my life… it got lost some where around the day I said “I do.”
you know i’m the same way. I don’t talk on the phone infront of hubby.. I rarely have tim eto talk on the phone. I talk to select 3 or 4 people weekly. One of those people are DH the other is my mom and the other two are my sister and one of my best girlfriends.
Glad the pest moved out! I also think men will be the end of me but it may jsut end up being my 9 year old daughter!
I say the same thing about women and fate has given me two daughters just for payback i think LOL
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