There seems to be plenty of both in my house these days. Yes, I am still alive but the activities at home and work have kept me quite busy.
Work has been very busy with stores stocking up our product for the impending holiday in 2 weeks. I have to not only send out the orders all over the US, but I also have to invoice all said orders as well. Yes, I barely have time to breathe, but I figured I better take a few minutes to let ya’ll know I am still around.
Home is another story. I am still carless. I still have no air conditioning and this past week saw temps near 100. Yes, I felt like bread in a toaster. The storms cooled it down to mid 80′s and it is tolerable again. The drama has been coming from the boys in my life and that term is used loosely.
The WH’s brother is terminally ill. They live in Florida. He has stage 4 cancer in his lungs and that is apparently not the cancers originating point. That is all we have been told so far, other than his son and mother have not been told yet. His mother is 84 and they are worried that the news will literally kill her. The son is bi-polar and a bit schitzo… so they are not sure how he will take it either. The BIL is on his second chemo treatment and they know it cannot be hidden much longer.
The drama comes into play because I don’t want to go down there. I have several reasons.
1. My health has suffered some with the baking of my body in the oven that is my house. This is a whole ‘nother post, but trust me, a long car ride is not in my best interest, or anyone elses for that matter.
2. I don’t handle angst well… my mother can verify that one. (This is my major reason for not going)
3. The dogs cannot be left alone that long. I don’t trust my neighbors enough to leave them with the feeding and watering chores.
4. The poker tourney is this Sunday and I have planned a long time for this one. (This is not all that important… but dang it all, I want to play!)
5. There is tons of stuff I can get done faster and better when they are not around.
My son does not understand this. I have tried to explain, but he shuts out all of my explanations. He sees it as not caring. I don’t know how to get it through to him that I would be a basket case before the weekend was over. He does not see anything else and it hurts me to see him stalk away time after time angry.
He does not see the big picture. I am willing to stay home for 4 days with no transportation to go ANYWHERE. I will be in a house with temps in the high 80′s. I will be cleaning his clothes and his room while he is gone. I will be cleaning the house he lives in. I will be feeding the dogs and I will know they are taken care of. He will have them healthy and happy to see him when he gets home.
How do you explain this to a kid that sees only what he wants to see? The WH actually wanted me to leave the dogs alone for 4 days with no food. “Feed them late Thursday and they will be fine until Sunday when you can catch a ride home with so and so”. WHAT?!?!? They are puppies and still growing and act like they are starving every time they are fed. High temps means the water would only last 2 days at best. See what I live with? This is only a fraction of what I have to deal with daily.
The WH I can tell to go to hell… but my son I can’t. How do I make him understand my reasons? How do you get through to a closed mind?
