Monday morning and I woke up smiling. Do you know how long it has been since I have done that? It has been a while to be sure.
All of you were right about my friend. I was forgiven and all is well. Thanks to all of you for your support and smiles… they worked!!
I spent the weekend with just my son as the other half was out of town at a family reunion in Tennessee. So the weekend was very relaxed and quiet. You just don’t realise how much chaos a person can cause in your life until they are out of it for even a short period of time. I stay tense and there is constant noise when he is home. If not yelling, he is fussing and if not that he is talking loudy. I don’t sleep when he is there and I don’t sleep when he takes our son with him places. Needless to say I slept very soundly after I talked with my friend and got that worry off my shoulders.
My son and I went to the movies Friday evening. He wanted to see Dukes of Hazard and I gave in and let him do the picking. We went to the late show as it makes him feel a bit grown up when he gets to stay up late. We had a coke to split between us and we were both so absorbed in the movie that we didn’t even notice we were the only ones in that room! We laughed and I was secretly jealous of a certain persons bod… but we had a great time.
Then he wanted to go buy a movie on sat and a PS2 game… so I treated for lunch and he bought his game and movie. He picked George of the Jungle 2 and we waited to watch that one until late in the day. We both crawled up in my bed (as I have the best TV), and watched the movie. We both got a kick out of the guy who replaced Brendan Frasier as George. It is amazing how much the new guy resembled him. We both fell asleep during the credits and I am guessing around 4am my son woke up and finally went to bed. We both probably slept better that night, in those few hours, than either has in a while.
Sunday we just lazed. He played his new game and I played poker for most of the morning. I had a long chat with my friend on Sunday around noon, we spent a couple of hours talking and it was nice. We then worked on getting out auction sales and his school project for the next day.
All in all it was a great weekend with one exception. My son floored me with a statement that I honestly did not know how to answer and this is not the first time he has made statements like this. Here is the scenario: He has these thoughts that because he thinks things that are bad that he is going to hell and that the devil wants to take him away. He will walk in my room just before bedtime and hit me with these questions. He always has this worried with just a bit of scared rabbit look in his eyes. These thoughts are keeping him up at night. I have tried my best to reassure him, but he didn’t and doesn’t belive me.
We are not church goers as most of you know. I did my church time when I was young and forced to go, and then later as I searched for one that I might enjoy. I never found that church.
I know my son needs exposure to this. He needs to know and make his own choices as to what he wants for his religion. His father is Catholic, but never goes to church and insists that if he (my son) is going to go to church then it will be a Catholic church as it is the only real religion in his mind. (Please no hate comments – I am repeating someone else’s thoughts) I was raised Methodist and we have one right down on the corner from us. I am not interested in going, but if it will ease my son’s mind, then I will start taking him to Sunday School.
I am up for any suggestions you might have. He listens to Carlo and I thought that a talk with a good male role model that won’t yell at him might be the answer. I don’t want to force Church on him if he doesn’t want it like I was. I really need your help on this one folks because this has me scratching my head. I don’t know where this came from and I am scared that at his age where it could go without trying to do something about it. When it comes to certain things he just won’t listen or talk to me.
