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Everything happens for a reason to Him known above. Every joy, struggle, tear shed and happiness shared has found its purpose in Him.
I have always been a simple girl, a girl who wanted to have a purpose in life. I have always wanted to make things beautiful and make everyone happy even if it hurt me. I am but a simple person who dreams of having a family of my own and be happy. I have experienced love and been loved, and it was a wonderful feeling. I have been hurt badly but I have moved on. Nevertheless, I have never given up on love for in this world, we are given second chances.
Apart from being a simple girl with a simple dream, let me tell you that I am blessed by my Father above. He has blessed me with good friends, a family who may not be perfect but whom I love so well and He has given me a second chance at love.
My second chance! Hmmm…He came to me like a song in the night. Nope he didn’t rob me of my heart. Not immediately though. They say the Internet is unlikely a place to meet your one true love. I beg to disagree for I met Trev through this medium.
He came into my life when I was just getting out of a painful relationship. I did not tell him then what I was going through. There were times when I was ignoring him but he would always send me a message wanting to get to know me. I only talked to him when I wanted to. He was so persistent, a virtue that would always remind me of him.
Finally, I told him that I was in a painful relationship and I am trying to get things fixed. I couldn’t fathom the sadness in his tone from our conversations. He was gentleman enough to accept that we could never be together as more than friends.
When I was able to let go of my pains from my previous relationship, Trev was also fading away from me. A surge of panic went to my veins. For the first time, I was missing him. There was a battle in my mind whether I would send him a signal that I am ready for him or just keep my pride and let go of my second chance. Dang, he had won me over and I had to swallow everything I said to him.
Being a daughter of a military man (my dad was in the US Navy during the Vietnam War), I didn’t want anyone from that field either. Well, unfortunately Trev is a military man (US Airforce) and to worsen things, he was in Iraq. OH OH NO! Did I make the right decision in loving him? Well, definitely so.
As I got to know him everyday, I learned new things from him. My heart overflowed. As they say some good things never last. For the happiness was short lived. He had to go on a mission with a promise that we’d see each other after.
It was a painful process for me as I really fell in love with him. There were moments that I would cry but there was never a time that I didn’t think about him. I had to be strong. There were times when I would check on his profile and would hope that he would come online but to no avail. I never stopped looking for him even if I had to face the consequence of him finding another person to love. In the event that he might fall for someone else, I would set aside my happiness and would have wished him all the best.
Just as I was about to let go, he came back into my life. He asked for forgiveness for he was in a place where there were no communications and things were beyond his control. I gathered my strength together. I loved this person so much that there was nothing to forgive. At that time, all I knew was that I loved him and I didn’t want to lose him again.
Having him back brought so much joy into my life. I was very blessed to have his love.
He was so lovable. He had this quiet attitude but could be so naughty. He always wanted the best for me. He found time within his busy schedule to chat with me. There was nothing I wanted more than to be with him.
The distance between us made it difficult sometimes. Trev was in Iraq and I, on the other hand, am here in the Philippines. If I had my way, I would give him a hug to let him know that he is loved.
What seemed to be an impossible love affair became possible. Love affairs where some people doubt its existence but to us who are into the relationship find its strength in each other. Every single day proved to be sweeter. As we get to know each other more and more, we found ourselves so engrossed in this thing called love. We simply enjoyed every moment that we were together.
The simple dream for this girl had become an ultimate dream for two hopeless romantics such as us. We had found our niche in each other’s arms. All we could think about is our lifetime together. Though we hadn’t been together yet, we just felt the love and the joy each of us brought into the others lives. I couldn’t ask for more.
When duty called and reality bit, we knew that again we had to part. Part not because we loved each other less but for him to fulfill a duty that would determine our future together. He had to go on his final mission in Iraq. Though it was painful I had to accept it and be strong for my man. I loved him so much that I didn’t want to meddle with his line of work and all I could do is to wait for him.
Months have passed and I haven’t heard from him. There are times when I get so worried about him, but matters are not under my control. All I know is that I love him so I am being patient.
I know now how it feels like to love unconditionally. To be strong when the other is weak. To be there when everything goes wrong. Nothing else matters when you love truly, madly and deeply (that’s from a song actually).
For whatever reasons that has put this relationship to a test, I am thankful to God for this has made me a better and stronger person.
As for my second chance, Trev, know that my love for you never fades. Whilst, the grass withers, I will stay in love with you for the rest of my days. Indeed, I admit, you robbed me of my heart and I am not taking it back. It is for you to keep.
Wherever you are, know that I am here waiting. Just a hug from you will take away all my pains.
Donna
